I typically try to write my posts the night before. I don't always get that done, but I do usually try to get them down and scheduled so the next morning I can avoid what happened this morning. Tuesday and the TIOT posts are the only posts that I always write in the morning. It's just part of my Tuesday ritual and I don't have a good explanation for it.
Of course I stayed up really late last night for no good reason and then I'm having a really hard time breaking up with my snooze button. I probably hit snooze 10 times this morning and evidently my sleepy self got sick of it all together and just turned off my alarm entirely. Well that's nice and all, but then I kind of woke up on my own and looked at the clock and I had to make some decisions. This morning I needed to do 3 things.
2. Write my TIOT post
Yea, uhhhh.. Not all of those were going to get done in the time frame I had left. Because it's TIOT I felt like I couldn't NOT workout, right? So I went to the gym and made that happen.. Sorta. Then I came home and showered.. Sorta. Didn't wash my hair, because there was definitely not going to be enough time to actually do it, so I dry shampooed the shit out of it and now it looks like a bird's nest on top of my head. Oh, but I added a braided headband to make it look like I did attempt to look presentable today.
I had a whole post planned about water today..
Which is going to have to wait until next week, because right now I want to clear some things up and maybe voice an opinion or two..
First of all, I haven't fallen in love with working out. I really think some of you need to hear that because I feel like my TIOT posts lately have given the wrong impression. I don't hate working out, but I'd rather go get a cavity filled at the dentist than go to the gym. That isn't me being dramatic at all, that's me being honest. I want to love working out, though. Which is why I keep going and I keep trying.
I don't like being sweaty.
I don't like getting my heart rate up.
I don't like feeling like I can't breathe.
I don't like when my legs hurt.
I don't like doing "one more rep".
I don't like it. I just really don't.
I'm also back to working out and going to the gym as a solo act. My workout buddy doesn't like any of those things listed above either and honestly, I can only be so much motivation for someone. They either want it or they don't. She's decided that right now she doesn't want it all that much. Which is her decision and I pushed her to go an extra week with me, but it turns out that when I have to be someone's only form of motivation that I get frustrated and lose my own motivation. So as of the last 3 weeks, I'm alone.
I just wanted to get this off my chest because I could tell from some of the comments on the last few TIOT posts that it looks like I've totally got my shit together. I have none of my shit together. Zero shit together, sir. Some of the same things that have been frustrating you guys or things that are hard for you guys are the same for me!
I don't love working out, but I want to.