Dating Myself

I got up at 5:30am to get to the gym by 6am this morning. Only hit snooze once, but then spent15 minutes searching for my headphones. I had put them up in a place "I'd definitely remember" and of course, I didn't remember. Found them, but that meant I was a little late to the gym. No worries, I thought, I'll just do some weights and then only run/walk 1 mile. I really want to get my mile time to 11 minutes, which is a pretty lofty goal, I won't lie. So, no matter what, I was determined to get at least 1 mile in. Well first I pinch myself in one of the weight machines then I stepped weird in my mile and cramped up my foot.

Went home to get ready - burnt myself on the curling iron and broke one of my shoes.

AND YET.. I'm in a down right jolly mood this morning. It's all because I've been working on ME lately.

I mentioned in my May Goals that I wanted to have a Me Date. Well, I actually wrote those goals on May 1st and just wasn't able to post them until Monday. So anyway, on Saturday night, I had a Me Date. I had planned it Saturday morning and ended up turning down 2 sets of plans so that I could make this happen.

I went and got take-out (Olive Garden salad for liiiiiife), rented a movie from Redbox (The Spectacular Now), and opened a bottle of wine (moscato, as it is always stocked in my apartment). I sat my phone down far away from me, grabbed a blanket, but on a face mask (after i was done eating) and watched the movie with no distractions. Then I went to bed early.
It was perfect.

I think the biggest thing that made it different from any other night was that I didn't open my laptop and I kept my phone away from me. I watched the movie and just watched it. I wasn't distracted by anything or multitasking, I was just laying on my couch watching the movie.

All this is to say that I'm working on me. I am and I'm trying and I'm not perfect. I've found that it's actually hardest to change myself and go with my new attitude and look on life around my family. Maybe it's just because they've known me for forever and I've always been this one way, but it's hard. That's where I'm struggling the most and it's really hard to try to be the way I want to be when I feel like I'm being pulled into a place I don't want to be. I'm not sure if that makes sense, but there you go.

I recommend a Me Date to everyone. It's going to be a once a month thing for me from now on.
Happy Wednesday!