Today has been weird.
I've not been sleeping well. I wake up a hundred times in the middle of the night, then when I finally get into a good, deep sleep, my alarm goes off and I'll press snooze every 9 minutes for over an hour, sometimes almost 2 hours of pressing snooze. No, I'm not kidding. OR I'll sleep okay, but then wake up at 4am and not be able to fall back asleep, but I'll also feel very lethargic and not want to actually get out of bed to be productive with those extra hours. This has been an ongoing problem for over a month now and I'm pretty sure I know all of the causes. There just isn't a quick fix to any of them at the moment, so I'm just hanging in there.
So, naturally I didn't sleep well last night. Actually, last night I woke up twice in the middle of the night, but then also woke up at 5:15am and couldn't fall back asleep. I entertained the idea of going to the gym, but instead I turned on Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince. That's the HP where Aragog dies, by the way.
So then I got into my car, where I had left the windows halfway down all night, and there was a giant, huge, enormous spider just chilling on the passenger seat. I named him Aragog, obviously, and freaked the hell out. Spiders don't really bother me so much, not like ants do (omg i can't handle ants), but this was a big, scary spider.
Also at work today I've been listening to Glee songs on Spotify all morning. I have no idea why. Every time I hear a song with Lea Michele and Cory Monteith singing together my heart hurts a little. Especially when it's some cute love song. Ugh.
Oh and this morning I was included in an email that I had no business being included in. Way above my pay grade and I don't understand at all why I was included. Especially when none of my peers were included. I mean, if the email came with a raise, I'd be all for it, but unfortunately, I'm pretty sure it doesn't.
I didn't intended to be a Debbie Downer and complain-y today, but damnit, it happened anyway. Sometimes I put so much effort into making sure my stress doesn't show for others that occasionally I come crashing down. Right now I'm sitting at the office by myself and I'm just tired of being stressed.
But a couple deep breaths and plastering a smile on my face and I'll be good as new.