The last time I mentioned that I was having a minor freakout about turning 25 I got a lot of feedback. So many of you said you felt the same way that I'm feeling, which was pretty reassuring. However, so many of you also said that you couldn't explain the feeling and approximately zero of you offered any kind of assistance on dealing with this feeling. Thanks a load.
Every time I come to this space to write about those pesky feelings, I end up not being able to get my thoughts organized enough for a post. Which has led to me struggling with this whole blogging thing. I haven't been commenting, I haven't been replying to comments very well, I haven't been bringing my A game, and it's making me feel bad.
I need to take a step back.
…And I might need a reality check.
Here's the thing, I've been doing some soul searching, which has been about a ridiculous as it sounds. I think my biggest issue with my 25th birthday isn't about it being some huge milestone or being another year older. I think my biggest issue is that I'm terrified my 25th birthday will be an exact copy of my 24th birthday.
I'm worried that I'll be in the same place in my life, a whole year later. Almost as if I wasted a year of my life.
Yea, that sentence above this one has got me totally and completely flipping my shit.
So Happy Thursday.
I'm sorry if you came here for some jokes and some sarcastic humor. I'm fresh out.
Tomorrow, tomorrow I'll be funny again.
And next week I'll be a better blogger again - replying to comments, writing quality posts, commenting on your blogs. I'll do better, I'll be better.
And in six months I'll be 25. Cue the hyperventilating.
time to start hinting to your friends that you want an awesome surprise birthday party, or whatever you need so you're not doing the same thing as last year.
ReplyDeleteHere's why 25 is awesome: your car insurance gets cheaper! saving money! heck yeah!
I freaked out on turning 25 too.
ReplyDeleteBut I also freaked my shit when I turned 29 last week.
I didn't drink when I turned 25, but I suggest drinking...
I think that was part of my freak out at 25 too. But I was more concerned with actually having to be an adult. Cause at 25 you just really can't even be considered a "kid" anymore. You can't get away with the same shenanigans. At 25 you have to leave all the immature shit behind and embrace the responsibility of being an official adult. At 25 you're supposed to be thinking about marriage and kids and houses and carpools. But I didn't freaking want to. Nor was I close to even having any of that. And it freaked me out. I felt "behind". I still felt 21 most of the time. It was a really hard birthday for me. I don't even think I did anything special.
ReplyDeleteNext month I'll be 28. And I'm freaking out about being almost 30 and having no kids. And that's a whole different can of worms.
I completely freaked out about turning 25. It was totally a "I'm no where near where I wanted to be at 25" kinda feeling. But the joke was on me, because the very next year at 26.. same thing. Except mix in a little "I'm closer to 30 than I am 20" and you've got 26. I wish I had some advice for you. Oh wait I do. Just get really drunk and it won't suck as bad lol
ReplyDeleteIts not a race girl.. Im doing the exact same thing I was doing last year..things take time enjoy it!
ReplyDeleteI'm not necessarily freaked out by certain birthdays (note, I'm less than 2 years away from 30!), and I never have been. I'm more worried that I'll never get anywhere in life and I'll always be stuck in the same place/situation I'm in now. My biggest advice is to take risks! Especially when it comes to jobs. The ones with the biggest risk are often the most rewarding!
ReplyDeleteHi Kay, I recently found your blog and I am your newest reader :) I actually just started my own blog, and yours has given me so much inspiration! I love that you aren't afraid to be real on your blog and I hope I can do the same with mine. In regards to turning 25, I know exactly how you feel. I'm only 22 but I agree that it's scary to think that a year from now you will still be at the same point in your life. I think the best way to overcome this fear is to actively work on yourself every day and then there is NO way you will be the same a year from now. I look forward to reading the rest of your posts! Thanks for the inspiring reads!
ReplyDelete"I'm worried that I'll be in the same place in my life, a whole year later. Almost as if I wasted a year of my life." --- I have thought this so many times throughout life, mostly in my twenties. i'm 32 now and i might not feel the same as I did from 25-27 but i do feel the same as i did 2 years ago. i think it's just part of getting older. i really wouldn't stress yourself out over your birthday because yea maybe when you turn 25 it will be just like it was when you were 24 the day before, but life is crazy and things could be totally different by the time you're 25 and 4 months and 8 days or something. and because honestly, these thoughts will happen at any age. like i'm in my 30s and everyone around me is married with kids, i'm not and it used to make me think i was behind and it would really upset me and i felt like i was wasting my life. but it's not true. what's true is that everyone has different paths, age doesn't mean shit.
ReplyDeleteenjoy the hell out of your 25th birthday even if the day after will be exactly like the day before <3
In 6 months I am going to be 28. It scares me as well. I am terrified of being in the same situation year after year. I am racking my brain trying to figure out how I can change my situation. If i figure it out I will let you know. I guess one thing I can say is taking baby steps. Each baby step will get you closer to a goal which could change your situation.
ReplyDeleteit is a hard thing. I struggled with turning 30 as from there i kept thinking oh my gosh then in 10 years it will be 40 gargh!
ReplyDeleteBut you have to live in the now otherwise, it really will pass you by faster than you can say 6 months...and its gone!
A good thing I use (try to use) is perspective....there are people living in this world who are far FAR worse off than any of us...the fact we get to blog about these things, on a computer AND celebrate another birthday of being healthy and happy...is pretty darn cool!
Okay, yes. Take a deep breath. That reality is a scary thought--that we're just the same people in the same place over and over again year after year. I can understand how terrifying it can feel. But you have to know that we all go (or have gone) through the same phases--even those who won't admit it! 25 was such a fun year for me--maybe one of the best! Nothing pivotal happened necessarily, but I just made a point to have fun and try new things! Your late 20s are for figuring life out. You've got some time :) I say that from my perch at 28. It's okay up here.
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