And it is no one's fault but my own.
I'm creating this pressure I'm putting on myself. I'm creating my long (loooooong) to-do lists. I'm the one trying to cram 36 hours in a 24 hour day. Me.
How do I combat that overwhelmed feeling?
Simple, easy, honest answer - I just don't. Usually I let it build and build and then one of two things happens..
- I lose my cool. I'm can be an emotional person anyway and sometimes when I get overwhelmed I start to get stressed and I handle stress in unusual ways (not eating and cleaning like a crazy person) and eventually I run out of ways to handle that stress and then I have a little breakdown and I cry for no reason about something totally irrelevant. And then I feel better and that's the end of that.
- OR.. It just goes away. Honestly sometimes I'll be going and going and I'll feel so overwhelmed and so stressed and so like my life is not put together and then one day I just wake up and I don't feel that way anymore. I can't explain it. The first time it happened was in high school and nothing changed and nothing special happened, but I woke up one day and just felt a thousand times better. Just like that.
So obviously, I love my #2 option. I love just waking up and feeling all of a sudden like I have a handle on things and that overwhelmed feeling that I hate is just gone. The catch is that sometimes while I'm waiting and hoping for Option #2 to happen.. Option #1 happens.
Which leaves me with where I am today.
I'm overwhelmed moving quickly into the stressed phase.
For no reason.
Guys seriously, there's no reason for this. I know this. But I can't seem to stop feeling it anyway. And it ANNOYS me. I'm annoyed with myself. I'm overwhelmed, stressed, and annoyed. I mean, really? If this were a Road Runner cartoon this is the part where I'd get smacked with a frying pan for being ridiculous.
For now I'm just going to keep taking deep breaths and counting to 10.
...And probably scrubbing my shower or organizing my spices...
*no, there isn't a photo to go with this post. the thought of finding a picture to add was overwhelming me and starting to piss me off. sorry.*